He left this world. He never left her.
UNIMAGINABLE~
The Gift of Losing My Child
What do you do when the unimaginable happens?
Eight days after Caryn and her husband told their three sons they were divorcing after twenty-eight years of marriage, their eldest son, Josh, died in a motorcycle accident. In an instant, the life Caryn knew—a devoted mother, a healer by profession, a woman of deep faith—shattered into an unrecognizable “after.”
What followed defied everything Caryn thought she understood about grief, faith, and even reality itself. Josh did not leave. He reached back—through signs, synchronicities, and a connection so vivid and undeniable that Caryn could no longer deny it: her son was still here, still guiding her, still loving her.
A Mother's Journey Through Loss, Love, and the Discovery That Death Is Not the End
Throughout it all, readers will feel the sorrows and joys of losing someone they love and find hope in understanding the truth about what happens after death, transforming their pain into meaningful purpose.
Unimaginable ~ The Gift of Losing My Child is the extraordinary true story of a mother and son who found a way to keep loving each other across the veil—and who, together, wrote this book to prove that love doesn’t end where life does.
Part memoir, part spiritual awakening, this book takes you inside the rawest depths of maternal grief and out the other side, into a startling truth: our loved ones are not gone. They are teachers. They are guides. Their leaving could be a gift we didn’t know we were given.
Through Caryn’s unflinching vulnerability and Josh’s voice reaching through from beyond, readers will discover:
How grief can crack us open to a deeper, more expansive understanding of love and loss
The signs our loved ones send us, and how to recognize them
Why the end of one identity can be the beginning of a truer, more authentic life
How connection with those we’ve lost can become a source of ongoing comfort, guidance, and even joy
That healing isn’t about “moving on”—it’s about learning to carry love forward, differently
For the millions grieving a child, a parent, a partner, or a dream of what life was supposed to be, Unimaginable is more than a memoir—it’s a lifeline. It is proof that even in our darkest chapters, love finds a way home.
This is a book you won’t just read. You’ll feel it in your bones—and you’ll never look at loss the same way again.
My son is dead and I speak with him every day.
As readers will discover in our memoir, my son Josh’s life and passing were gifts that gave me a new purpose—our souls’ purpose, so to speak—and revealed God’s plans for my life.
This is my vulnerable story of how the gift Josh left me revealed the truth about what happens when we die.
-Caryn
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About Caryn
Entrepreneur, speaker, trainer, and hypnotherapist, Caryn Bird is CEO of Win With Hypnosis Clinic in Burlington, Wisconsin. In 2020, she lost her son, Josh, in a motorcycle accident, just as the world began shutting down due to the pandemic. The loss of her son turned out to be a gift, however, leading Caryn to find her true mission and soul’s purpose: sharing with other parents who have lost children the hope and truth that their child is still with them, and the message that their love is eternal.
Caryn Bird is an International Speaker, Trainer, and Founder of Attitude of a Champion Academy. She coaches and certifies hypnotists worldwide to become game-changing Performance Mindset Experts.
Following the death of her son Josh, Caryn expanded her work to support grieving parents. She now leads Heal the Heartache Soul Retreats—immersive, multi-day experiences that combine hypnotherapy, spiritual connection, and group healing.
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Caryn is the founder of the Attitude of Champion certification program—a legacy built with her son Josh, an elite wrestler and her co-author—now a six-figure coaching business training therapists as Performance Mindset Trainers. Known as a leading mindset expert for athletes and high performers, she’s keynoted at the NGH Solid Gold Conference and presented across the U.S. and Canada for over eight years, reaching thousands through summits, podcasts, and media features.
In 2020, just days after she and her husband announced their divorce, Caryn lost her 23-year-old son, Josh. Soon after, he began reaching her from the spiritual world. Through her enduring faith and their ongoing communication across the veil, Caryn found her way through unimaginable grief—and discovered a message of hope.
In her book Unimaginable, Caryn shares her and Josh’s story to help grieving parents feel joy again and know their child is still with them. She offers a evolving view of Christianity and spirituality—one where faith, reincarnation, and communication with loved ones across the veil can coexist.